It's been more than a week since my last entry. See, sometimes in order to keep a record of my life (for "future Jesse" to reminisce upon), I have to balance between being discreet and letting on a little more of my personal thoughts. It's a delicate balance (as some of you have recently become aware). So since I haven't blogged in over a week now, it's about time.

I am stupid drunk writing this blog-post. Office party = w00t. I've imbibed: a Manhattan, a shot of Jagermeister, a vodka martini, a "Russian Flag" shot (I'll explain that tomorrow), two glasses of Merlot, and two Beautifuls (thanks Paul). Yeah, I'm having a little trouble typing this. My co-workers and I talked about a lot of stuff this evening. A lot of thougthful, sometimes even emotional, topics were discussed.

In particular, I had the most incredible conversation with one of my co-workers this evening. That is, someone of my own age, whom I had assumed to be, shall we say, somewhat superficial, turned out to be a very interesting person! Well, let me explain: working in the world of business, I've simply started to assume that everyone is a conservative. My co-worker surprised me by being a politically and socially conscientious, liberal-minded, free-market capitalist. I was taken aback by her militant approach to "staying informed" and being active in the political atmosphere of one's society. Most strikingly, when one of older gentlemen made an off-colour remark about her gender (and her in particular), she leaned towards me and confessed in depth how difficult she found the balance between allowing her looks to carry her socially in a business world full of middle-aged men, versus standing up for her person and not allowing herself to be valued solely in terms of said looks.

This isn't to say at all that I've been oblivious to that fact that many women have such struggles, but rather that I had boorishly assumed she hadn't been so incredibly cognisant of it. As a matter of fact, she thinks about it all the time: it is a delicate balance between social-strategy and self-esteem.

It's sad: When you get used to being smarter than the average person; when you see fallacy in most aspects of the society around you; when, throughout your life you are continually disappointed by the lack of logic, reason, and forethought demonstrated by most people; you arrogantly begin to assume that almost everyone on Earth is stupid. How pleasant it was to have my assumptions proved incredibly wrong. The refutal itself is glorious.

Thank you, J¹!

P.S. - Can I take a moment and also add how amazing Angela has been lately? It's been bit of a difficult time for me as of late, and my lady has been nothing but super supportive and incredible. When I'm with her, it feels like home. Our time together this week has been so happy and content, it's just like falling in love all over again. I love you THIS MUCH, Angela!   ;-)

Okay, time to lose consciousness. No comments!!!